Well, I’m coming back…
Have you missed me?
Last week I had another ultrasound, and got the news that it’s my last for a while – I’m officially back in the “normal monitoring” category. Since then, I have been sleeping a good 10-12 hours a night, and when I get close to anything creative, I’m dazed, about as focused as a cow in the sun. After my first scan came back clear I was walking on air, but I didn’t quite trust it. After the second came back iffy I felt like a warrior, ready to fight the good fight no matter what. After my biopsy came back clear I was elated, then depressed – I relaxed, and all that forward focus melted in on itself. Same person, same body part, no new changes. Isn’t life strange?
If this has been so intense for me, what must if be like for people whose suspicious changes really are cancer?
Humbling.
When I put up that post I’ve been promising, I’ll back-date it so it still comes right after the prompt. Then, voila and onward. So little time, so many books, many, many interesting things to learn about and share.
For today I just posted an excerpt from Charles de Lint’s Svaha. I had it ready and waiting ahead of time. Ironically, it’s a quip about being ready to live: “If you’re not ready to die, then how can you live?“
May 12th, 2010 at 2:36 pm
Great news regarding the results, looking forward to the new stuff (once the cow has broken its gaze from the sun).
May 12th, 2010 at 3:44 pm
I’m writing. At this moment. W00t.