Your mission now is to ask yourself every day, ‘Am I doing what I want to be doing?’

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My experience was about letting go

I remember my radiologist saying to me, “Your mission now is to ask yourself every day, ‘Am I doing what I want to be doing?’” And I do ask myself that, every day. I try to make the answer yes, even if it requires saying the word no and disappointing someone.

My experience was about letting go. It was about really experiencing all that was happening at the deepest emotional level, for that is where the big changes occur. That is where you meet yourself. Where you begin remembering who you are and who you were meant to be. I don’t believe you have to be diagnosed to come to these lessons, but sometimes the catastrophic moments in life force you to focus in on the immediate.

by Sheryl Crow
from her preface to Crazy Sexy Cancer Tips (2007)
author, Kris Carr
image – Sara. Nel

Your Mission Possible, if you choose to accept it or not

I bumped into this quote on the blog of Andrea Ross, ace children’s book podcaster, straight-shooting communicator and… and I don’t know what to put in that blank and defined space, and that’s OK. Andrea gets the final word.

Me? I’m along for the read, which is different than being along for the ride because my mind is open and I’m willing to let stuff come in, or through. When I read, at some level I am willing to suspend disbelief. The pessimistic me is willing to be my own Superman. If I’ve been impersonating pollyanna Glad Girl, suspending disbelief could be willingness to look in the hard places. If I’m reading flatly factual science, I want to know if that study they’re quoting really is a sign of the next good thing.

My mission, if I choose to accept it or not, is to experience.

And to get caught up on the dishes. Sometime in this life I want to get caught up on the dishes.

Seriously, though, I meant that thing about experiencing.

Experiencing comes with prerequisites like showing up and using skills. It’s not rocket science and it doesn’t happen in a vacuum. One way or another, experience requires making choices and showing up. Andrea said it well: “when the learning is through, I’m going to leave with the woman that I’ve wanted all along – the better, stronger, happier me.”


P.S. Yes, I know I’ve excerpted this passage before. It bears repeating, from either end.

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4 Responses to “Your mission now is to ask yourself every day, ‘Am I doing what I want to be doing?’”

  1. Juanita Says:

    Whoo, that’s a good one, E!

  2. john Says:

    Yes. I am right now telling you “thank you” for the quote.

  3. Mark William Jackson Says:

    Great quote, a question most people would be too scared to ask of themselves but when dealing with a resource as finite as time it is one that should be asked frequently.

  4. E. A. Able Says:

    Absolutely, Mark.

    I think limits have power, because they simplify. By getting tested I’d chosen the box marked “I want to know,” and a whole bunch of other stuff fell off my radar. I was a Zulu Viking warrior for about half an hour after my biopsy, and then I needed to hook up my logic skills to stay strong.

    That feeling came back, but it I had to work at it. Not easy – and mine was just a biopsy.